Augusta County: Mary Anna Sibert to David H. Evans,
May 28, 1868
Summary:
Sibert announces that Evans' missing letter arrived, and details the unhappiness
it had caused her to be without it. She describes her devoted love for
Evans.
May 28, 1868
Mt. Solon Va.
My Dear David,
The letter which disappointed me so much on Tuesday, came today (Thursday) & how pleasantly my heart was relieved of all
anxiety. I wrote to you yesterday by Mr. Jerry Hall telling you of my
disappointment, & suppose you received the
letter, & was surprised to hear that I did not get your letter Tuesday.
I have it now & although short I thank God for
it, as it is from you my love. I would rather get one
line written by your dear hand than sheets full from anyone else. but I love
for you to write me long letters when you have time. This last one
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I
willingly Excuse as you were busy. I can't tell you how many things I imagined which made me just as unhappy as anyone ever could be in this life, by not getting your
letter Tuesday. I was perfectedly miserable from Tuesday evening, until 10
O'clock today when your dear letter came &
made my heart free from suffering. I love you so that when I do not see you or
get letters from you I suffer deeply, & long. The whole world seems
dark, & dreary to me, & I cannot find peace & pleasure
with anyone, or in any way. I find happiness in
nothing on Earth when I think I have lost your love & I know by my
heartaches then that with you is my
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only real happiness in this life
& do beleive that I could not live if you did not love me. You must not
smile & say I just think so now. I do not just think so, for I know that
my happiness depends upon you, & that I never truly loved until I loved
you, & it is my nature to love you with all my soul my heart, mind
& strength & loving you so could I ever be happy, & live
without your love? I feel that I could not. May God bless our love for each other always is my daily prayer. I was so
disappointed when I read in your letter that you cannot come Saturday. how can I
spend another long week without seeing you my love. It seems that I cannot wait
so long
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for Oh! I do want to see your dear face so much, so much--I
am saying truly just as I feel. I do want to see you this week for it is so long
since you were here, & then you were with me such a short time,
& to be with you is the greatest pleasure of my life--a pleasure I love,
& thank God for giving me. My dear pa & Ada have not returned
yet. we are looking for them today. There is a letter
here for pa from General Imboden who is well again.
My Editor Mr. Wartman of Harrisonburg is here attending the Musical Convention.
his wife just died a few weeks ago. Ella would say he has no heart, I think so
myself. I love you with all my heart, Soul, & nature, & will
while we both live. I want to see you more than I can
write in words Oh I do wish you could come Saturday, if you cannot come (but I
hope you will) write to me Tuesday. All send love. I send love & a
loving kiss to you. God bless you my love, my heart is only yours
Yours
Mollie Sibert
