Augusta County: Mary Anna Sibert to David H. Evans,
November 18, 1868
Summary:
Sibert writes Evans and discusses her reaction to his quiet mood, family news,
and prospects for future visits.
Nov. 18, /'68.
I wrote this letter Wednesday
Buffalo, Va.
My Dear David
Hamie brought your last dear & welcome letter safely. It contained the
same news of God's Mercy in guiding you on your way home without accident for
which I am not forgetful, but I know that My heart is too much filled with
thoughts of you to be true to My Father in Heaven. May God moderate My deep
affection for you My love is the daily prayer of my life. I am truly [deleted: ]y that I gave way to my feelings before you last Saturday night I
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could not help it then forgive me my love I did not know what to
think of your manner towards me I wished while I sit & looked at you
that I could read your heart & see love there for me without letting you
know that I was grieved at the time. I did not doubt you my love I have said
that I would not. I did not & will not doubt your affection for me I
felt disappointed & deeply grieved that after an absence of a long week
that you who I love more than my own soul should seem so
[unclear: indifferent toward] me, but I will not forget in the
future that you have much to think
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over & make you silent
regarding business affairs it is so with all gentlemen. I shall not forget that
you have your business cares to occupy your time & thoughts. I am
selfish to suppose that you have nothing to think of but me. I know that you are
my first thought in all things, & at all times. I will yet learn to see
& do my duty to you my love at all times when you are silent &
thoughtful I love you then as devotedly as if you were gay. It gives me pain to
see you troubled & I don't know [unclear: what]
[unclear: makes] you so. Ma was not angry when she reached home about
Hamie going down with you she
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was glad to get home again. she told me
how handsome you looked Monday night I wish I could have seen you. did your
Sister in law think you were dressed fanciful. I have
given up the hope of spending any time in Staunton this Winter it has been my
earnest wish to do so [unclear: that] I might be near you My love but I
am I see doomed to be disappointed in that wish of my heart I may get there
after Christmas & spend a week or two I do hope so then I can see you
every day. I wish you were here today I do want to see
your dear face more than I can tell. I hope you can come
up Saturday I do want you to come Magnus expects to come, we are expecting dear
papa Saturday. he may come before then. I hope so I love you with all the
unchanging devotion of my heart & soul & ever shall while I
live. You are the dearest to me of all on Earth [illeg.]
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[illeg.] the devotion of my heart & all my thoughts are of you.
Come, May God bless you my love. All send love I send a loving kiss Write to me
soon I love you only
Yours Lovingly
Mollie Sibert
Do you think I am selfish for wanting you to come every Saturday? I love to be [illeg.]th you & I do want you to come every [illeg.]ek, forgive me if you think me selfish. I love you
