Augusta County: Mary Anna Sibert to David H. Evans,
December 17, 1868
Summary:
Sibert writes Evans and expresses her relief at receiving a letter from him two
days late. She admits it caused her much worry, and expresses how important his
love for her is to her life and happiness. She urges Evans to visit, and to
spend Christmas with her family.
Dec. 17, /'68
Buffalo, Va.
My Dear David
Oh! how glad I was this evening when your dear & welcome letter came. I
have been so sad & troubled since Tuesday by not getting a letter from
you I was so much disappointed & could not think why you did not write I
as usual imagined a thousand things but not once did I imagine the right cause I
never thought of John Noon being away. Your dear letter of today has lifted a heavy burden from my heart. I was sad last night
because I had [illeg.]
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heard from you but tonight I feel like a
new creature as I have your letter my love & I know you love me only. I
thought yesterday when my heart was grieved with wondering why you did not write
what would all the whole world be to me without your precious love. I felt that
it would be nothing, only a desolate void which could never fill or satisfy my
heart I could never never be happy again if you did not love me. I would rather
have your love than all the wide world & all it
contains they could not make me happy if you did not love me. I see &
feel this to be so every day of my life. I should die if you ceased to love me.
I would not care to live without
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your affections were all mine to
have as long as I live. Oh my love it is the daily cry of my heart that I may
always have your dear love & always be entirely worthy of it, &
I shall always be worthy & keep myself so
while I have life. I do hope you can spend the holidays at Mountain Palace with
me I shall not enjoy them without you my love but will be lonely & sad
if you are away. I do not wish to disappoint your
[unclear: Ma] but I am selfish enough to hope you will not go to
Winchester Christmas. I do so want you to be with me my love. Do just as you
think is right, but my heart wants you here. I am truly selfish in my affection
for you. I confess the truth
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I am indeed I do not like for you to be
with anyone but myself. forgive me my love I can't
help it I have tried to do so but can't. I am so glad you are coming up next
Sabbath if you live I want to see you more than I can
tell with my pen. The time always seems so short that you have to spend with me
it seems more like a happy & pleasant dream than
reality after you are gone. I scarcely see your dear face before you must say
"Goodby" & are gone. I wish with all my heart that I could see you now I
should be very happy then. We have been expecting pa all week. he has not yet
arrived. I hope he will come Saturday.
I will send this letter in the morning to Swoope's Depot by Frank the black man then I shall feel sure of you getting it. I love you with all the true & unchanging devotion of both heart & soul & ever shall while I live. Come Sunday if you live. I wish you could come Saturday Evening I could then be with you who I love more than all on Earth one Evening longer. Yes I do indeed love you with all my heart & soul & love you only of all living. I love to be with you & love to think of you when absent come. All send love I send a loving kiss. God bless you & let you come My only love.
Yours Loving
Mollie Sibert
