Augusta County: Mary Anna Sibert to David H. Evans,
March 30, 1868
Summary:
Sibert explains that she could not mail her letter earlier because of problems
with the delivery of the mails.
March 30, 1868
Mt. Solon, Va.
My Dear David,
I was so much disappointed last Friday after I
found out the Mail had gone to Staunton without my letter to you, which I had
ready for the Office Thursday. Captain Curtis started
for Sanger's Ville came back saying the river was too high to cross, &
that Mr Jones could not get to town the next day. Hamie & others said
the river was too full to ford, & there would be no mail the next day. I
did not like for my letter to lay in the Office until Saturday Evening so I did
not send it over, but thought I would watch for Mr. Jones in the morning
& if he went give him the letter to mail at Spring
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Hill to my
utter surprise & great disappointment he left sooner on that morning
than he has done since carrying the mail. I was so
sorry, & grieved about it that I have not felt happy since, & if
Jim had been here I would have sent the letter to you. You must not be angry
with me or think that I no longer love you, & if you could only know how
deeply I was grieved, & disappointed by you not getting my letter, you
would never think unkindly of me. I did wish I could see you & tell how
it was. I hoped & looked for you Saturday & Sunday. when the
horse & buggy came without you & Magnus, the disappointment was
so bitter that I cried all the morning I was lonely
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& truly
miserable, because you did not come & my letter was not sent. I knew the
roads were bad, but still I wanted you to come. Oh! how Earnestly I did wish for
you to come it seems that I never felt more anxious to see you than this time you did not come, & my heart ached under the
disappointment it was so hard. I wondered what you would think of me for not
answering your last dear letter, & if you did not come it would be so
long before you could know how it was, & all that time would he think
unkindly of me I only hope you did not blame me. If I did not love you I should
tell you so & not treat your dear, & welcome letters with
indifference. I
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could not be so unkind to one I had loved so devotedly
as I love you. the neglect was not caused by any change in my affection for you.
You are the same dear & beloved object of my heart, & thoughts,
just the same only if possibly more dear, for the past four days of suffering by
not seeing your dear face & what you would think of me by not getting my
letter taught me how necessary you are to my happiness, & how keen the
anguish would be for me to give you up, & your precious love. I feel in
the deepest recess of my Soul that I love you only with a love that I never gave
to living man before, & cannot love another as I love you, &
nothing but death can take it from you, & then I will love you in
Heaven, for I am trying with God's aid to live a life He loves, so I can go to
that Land of rest when called away from Earth, & my loved ones,
& My daily prayer
